Creativity is amazing. Especially when the ideas are flowing and they’re good ideas. Unfortunately, those things don’t always happen. For me, the good ideas come but I don’t like them normally. I’m very critical of my own work. There are only a few things that I’ve made that I’ve been happy with. This usually ends up in a massive mind battle.
Here’s a little insight into how my mind works. I’ll create something, whether it’s for a class or just for fun, and nine times out of ten I’ll hate it. No matter how many times someone says it’s a good idea or looks great, I can’t get my mind to stop telling me how terrible I am. It literally could be the best thing I’ve ever made and I can somehow find some way to make it seem terrible. The only thing worse is when I make something that is obviously terrible and I really worked hard on it.
Lately, I’ve been trying to drown this firestorm of horrible thoughts out with music, particularly rock music. This has helped in the past but my internal voice has cranked up the volume since then I guess. The only thing that has helped so far is to distract myself with more work.
I really just want to not hate my work so much. There will still be things that I make that I don’t like but surely it won’t be 90% of what I produce. How does one go about liking their own work or at least not hating it? Then my next question is, how do I make my brain stop talking to me for a while? I know, I sound psycho.